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Peter "so fucking done" Pettigrew (somanyregrets) wrote,
@ 2008-09-16 23:22:00

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For what it's worth, it is impossible to tell. But I suppose that's the point, isn't it?

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	Peter. fortiscadere 2008-09-16 10:29 pm UTC (link)
	What? (Reply to this) (Thread)

	Severus. somanyregrets 2008-09-16 10:33 pm UTC (link)
	Somehow I doubt Dumbledore would have told that lot about the tunnel under the Willow. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Peter fortiscadere 2008-09-16 10:35 pm UTC (link)
	Dumbledore is a mysterious type. Personally I would have figured Black for an expulsion following his nearly killing me stint, but we both know how that turned out. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Severus. somanyregrets 2008-09-16 10:43 pm UTC (link)
	You're still alive. And besides, Dumbledore probably wanted Sirius in a position that he could keep an eye on him. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Peter. fortiscadere 2008-09-16 10:47 pm UTC (link)
	That's one theory. You probably aren't interested in my other ones. ~~How much are they saying~~ Bollocks. What are they saying about me? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Severus. somanyregrets 2008-09-16 10:55 pm UTC (link)
	Fragmented sentiments. It's mostly... I dunno, disbelief, at the moment. I could hear Agnes crying not long after... And I don't even know why I'm telling you this. Oh. Fuck. Cross that out. Cross that out. No. Don't write me saying cross that out. Cross what I wrote... Goddamn fucking useless piece of shit. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Peter. fortiscadere 2008-09-16 11:02 pm UTC (link)
	Dammit. I don't know what to say to her. I can't write anything that means anything and I don't blame her, but - ~~I hate I~~ (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Severus. somanyregrets 2008-09-16 11:10 pm UTC (link)
	Try and explain, maybe? Impossible to say whether she'll understand. Fuck if any of us understand why anyone would willing throw themselves in with that lot, but we do understand loyalty. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Peter.

fortiscadere
2008-09-16 11:24 pm UTC (link)

Would you make the same decisions you made a year ago today? Always? Every single time? Is there anything you'd go back and change?

They're my friends. And they actually care what happens to me and try to be there for me and I've tried to be there for them. And I know that doesn't make sense, but the orders are orders. My friends are the people who actually give a damn about whether I live or die. And they don't judge-

She's not going to forgive me. ~~She shouldn't forgive me.~~ Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. ~~I liked her~~

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Severus.

somanyregrets
2008-09-16 11:36 pm UTC (link)

No. No, I wouldn't have. Nobody would have. Our thought patterns are different. We've grown and changed so much in the circumstances that we've been subjected to. I know more now than we did when we got wrapped up in this.

If I were able, I never would have no. Strike that out. Delete it. Jesus H. Christ, what is the command to erase things? Undo! Oh, forget it.

Yes. There are things I would change. Quite a few, in fact.

And I wouldn't say that with such finality. Agnes is Agnes and therefore, by definition, unpredictable.

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	Peter fortiscadere 2008-09-16 11:42 pm UTC (link)
	You seem to have quill problems. That's the problem isn't it? By the time you know enough to make a good decision about it, there isn't enough - time. I know she's unpredictable. I just. ~~why does everything I fucking touch crumble? It's like, I touch it, and it's ruined.~~ ~~I'm going to die. Or I'm going to go to Azkaban.~~ I liked her. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Severus. somanyregrets 2008-09-16 11:50 pm UTC (link)
	Dictaquills^TM. Didn't even check if they came with an instruction manual. Or changing your mind just isn't feasible no matter how much you'd like it to be. Again, for what it's worth, you're decent, for one of the masked morons. She liked you, too. Wouldn't doubt it. She wouldn't be upset if she hadn't. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Peter. fortiscadere 2008-09-16 11:53 pm UTC (link)
	I think this is where we insert a joke about you being a typical male. If I felt more like levity, I'd make an effort. Thanks. ~~I guess.~~ Yeah, and I wouldn't have made Lily cry if she didn't care. Somehow it's not worth a whole lot. And dammit - (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Severus. somanyregrets 2008-09-17 12:10 am UTC (link)
	Splotchy. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Peter fortiscadere 2008-09-17 12:12 am UTC (link)
	Sorry. My friend seems to think I'm overexerting myself. Alternatively, that this is unnecessary excitement when I should be sleeping. Fuck that. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Severus. somanyregrets 2008-09-17 12:46 am UTC (link)
	Perhaps it would be a good idea? The sleeping bit, at least. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Peter. fortiscadere 2008-09-17 12:50 am UTC (link)
	What? You're both ganging up on me? You don't even like my friends. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Severus. somanyregrets 2008-09-17 12:57 am UTC (link)
	Think of it this way. Asleep, you don't have to think about all of this. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Peter. fortiscadere 2008-09-17 01:13 am UTC (link)
	That's- Dammit. That's a good point. Look. She won't take it if she knows it's from me, but if you see Agnes, I mean, the next time you see her. Give her a hug for me. Maybe two. I think she needs them. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Severus. somanyregrets 2008-09-17 01:37 am UTC (link)
	I will. Once I'm capable. Lily, too, for good measure? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Peter. fortiscadere 2008-09-17 01:44 am UTC (link)
	Yeah. Lily too. (Reply to this) (Parent)