Peter "so fucking done" Pettigrew

First Benjy and now both of the Prewetts. Oddly, I just feel numb. I would think that I would be more upset right now, but I know that I can't allow myself to be broken up because that would draw too many questions. I didn't know any of them well. And in all honesty, I was expecting it. Perhaps not Benjy. No. He never did anything to draw attention to himself, but the Prewetts... It was only a matter of time after what happened.

God, I hate feeling like this. I hate feeling like it's normal that three people just died. I don't want this to be normal. I don't want this to be our reality. But it doesn't matter what I want, does it? It never It doesn't matter what any of us want because we're not part of their cause. We're part of the problem and thus, need to be eliminated. I swear to God, they're not going to get me. They're not going to. I won't allow it.

Agnes is recovering. I wasn't sure whether anyone had bothered to mention anything to you or not, so I figured... Well, yeah. She's recovering. Slowly. It was Azkaban, after all. But there doesn't seem to be any lasting damage.

I'm frustrated, exhausted, and disgusted. And I'm this close to quitting. We need to get things together, or we're going to end up tearing ourselves apart. The way things are going, the latter seems more likely.

I swear to God, when I'm attempting to be the voice of reason, something has gone horribly wrong.